One word to describe my week would be … busy!
Of my many responsibilities, I had to see my oncologist, and she put me back on steroids. I’m happy about that, even though it means I will get puffy again. I also had to get bloodwork and check in with the doctor to see how everything is going. They think I have a tumour on the brain again, only this one is up higher.
In addition, I had chemo again, which went OK. Next is a full body scan to see if there is another brain tumour and if the chemo is working, so keep your fingers crossed.
The steroids will swell me up starting soon. I am up to 149 from 146 in three days, and I hate gaining weight. Everyone tells me it’s better than being dead. I guess they are right, but I have never had it in my head that I'm dying. At least they are able to get rid of the cancer spots as best as they can.
I have it in both hips, two ribs, leg bones, in the jaw, pelvis, spine, brain, sternum, two spots on the liver and a few more I'm not sure about. That’s enough for anyone to worry about. But I usually don't worry about where my cancer is. I worry about things that to everyone else would be less important. But there is nothing I can do to get the cancer out of my own so why waste time worrying over it?
I find it hard sometimes when there is no one around to vent to, so I call my younger brother Kevin in Amherst and then I called his girlfriend Wanda. I wanted to call my mother but the phone bill to heaven would cost too much. So, Kevin gets to listen and he’s good to talk to. He’s upbeat and makes me feel better.
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Kathy Golemiec is undergoing cancer treatments and writes about her experiences each week.