I went to see my oncologist and he told me he was giving me the summer off chemo because most people take it for about six months and I have been on it for 18 months. The heart specialist thinks I need a break because so much chemo could cause me to have a heart attack. I’m also to continue taking my heart pills.
On a positive note, the chemo has been working at slowing the cancer and it's making some spots better. I’m still nervous the cancer will come back stronger but the doctor said if it does, we start the drugs again.
I don't want to give up fighting and I’m making sure I’m strong enough in case another attack comes. I still have to take the bone filler IV and I get a scan done within three months to monitor for updates. It’s possible I may get weeks off , months or even a year if all goes well. It would give my body a chance to heal a bit from all the chemo and I should get some energy back, which would be great. I would also like to get some feeling back into my fingers so send me some good vibes and lots of prayers.
Also, my pain level most recently has been at a five, so that’s much better. And weight wise I’m at 138.6, which is awesome!
You know, death really makes you think about life. My uncle John passed away recently. He had a good life and many friends and was liked by everyone. That's how I want to be remembered. I have always tried to live a good life, I am nice to everyone and I never hold a grudge. I love it when people I don't even know come up and hug me and when people tell me my column helps people understand what its like to be dying and still living at the same time. I am not scared of death but I still have a lot to write about and share so I would like to be here for as long as I can.
I recently visited the SPCA in Truro to see if they had any puppies or small dogs, but they were all big. If anyone knows of someone that needs a home for a small dog that's under 20 pounds and likes to cuddle and not bite, call the paper and give them your number.